Honestly

I'm afraid of you. Don't know why but I feel so suppressed, like as if I'm dying inside. The previous incident really hurt me more than intended. No matter how hard I try to open up, I just fail even more miserably. Sorry, I don't want it to be this way too. But because of the past, I'm so scared, so cautious, so careful, afraid of ever stepping on your toes without knowing. I admit I'm really very blunt and insensitive. :( It's nobody's fault, it's just that the time spent without each other has taken a toll on this bond we used to share. H8 when I just clamp up, but it's like I can't come out of my shell to meet you. I'm very sorry, not towards you, but for myself, because I can't bring myself to let go of the past. Scars? It's because you mean so much, that it seriously scares me inside to think that the past might go on replay, I won't be able to take it, this time.

Forgive me, dear friend