Fuck

Why am I always the only one who bothers? I'm starting to wear out, feels like there's this thing in my throat, stuck but I can't cry. It just feels so horrible, like being left somewhere all alone. Why do I feel so sad, I'm supposed to be happy
This is killing me inside

Sometimes I wonder if the pieces of my heart are going out to the right people, I don't like having to pick up the pieces by myself in the end.